sometimes i wish i could just toughen up. man I am such a whine ass sometimes. I need to learn how to just distance myself from what i feel. i don't know. sometimes i like it. i think it makes me human. and it's cool because i feel the good moments with the same intensity but sometimes feeling so much feels....it feels like no way to live. to quote some dashboard i feel like a "walking open wound" half the time. I need to stop putting stuff like this in here if i'm allowing this to be a public blog. haha i'm such a rollercoaster. i guess we cancers really are the first to laugh and the first to cry. others must think i'm crazy. btw nothing sacred by the rx bandits is a good song. wow writing is so good for me....i feel so much better now. but seriously, why do emtions hit me so fresh everytime? it's like I never built up any tolerence. too bad feeling something all the time doesn't make me a little immune to it like drinking all the time does. blah, you know why girls can never find nice sensitive guys? because being a nice sensitive guy sucks nuts. nice guys do finish last i'm convinced. toughen up or get crushed.