so it has taken me three years to admit it to myself but I absolutly hate college. Infact, I don't even want to be a teacher. Even if I didn't have to keep going to school for it I wouldn't want to do it. Caring about the kids isn't enough. I would be great for emotional stuff but I would be a terrible teacher. After this semester, i'm not going to be in school. Maybe i'll come back someday but even if i do it will be for a different major. I think i've figured out what I want to do and i know this might sound nuts. Well, over the summer I will probably just work a job or something and have fun but then when everyone gets back into school i'm going to do some training of my own. I'm going to train to be a firefighter. Oh yeah, and that's the other reason i want to wait over the summer so I can keep lifting and I can improve my upperbody strength. I'm still glad i will have gone to college as long as I did. first of all if i hadn't I would always wonder about what i could have done if I had. Secondly, I will admit that it has taught me some better writing skill and my poetry will have improved from this (just a note but i recently noticed that during this time of "higher learning" I have produced less poetry than at any other point of my life). And also, I wouldn't change this at all if i meant not getting to meet some of the people i've met here at UMF. I know a guy who did his firefighter training right in augusta, and i've been looking into it and i'll probably do either a local train or a regional train as oppposed to going to fire academy. both of these allow me to do my training with a fire station around here instead of going to SMCC for a crash course. haha I can't beleive this is what i want to do but honestly I think it is. I don't want to work just any job but also i don't want to work with papers and desks and books at all. I want to be a friggin' hero. I want to save lives. I know there are going to be some gruesome sights with this job but I don't care. I'll train myself to handle it. and who knows, this isn't set in stone yet so maybe i'll change my mind but i think this is really what i want to do.