Please read my disclaimer before reading the poem so you don't think i'm the biggest asshole ever to live

*disclaimer*
ok so i really wanted to write something tonight but i didn't have anything in my mind that i wanted to write about so I decided i would play some music on shuffle and write something based on the first song i came to. well that first song was Helena by nickel creek. the lines such as "guys like me never sleep alone" seemed a bit too...hmmm lets say "douchy" for me so I decided to pass. next came some fall out boy with lines such as "I'll keep singing these lies if you'll keep believing it" at this point i was like ok how about i not come off as a jerk. so then i got "make damn sure" by Taking back Sunday. then i decided that i was just meant to be an ass tonight so i just kind of merged feel from these songs into a series of lines that makes me almost hate myself for even being able to come up with them.

The honest lines left in the wake of humid breath

you won't see these words
but remember last week
when you were telling me how
your friend, the one from work
upset you because of something
I don't remember? At the mention
of her I started to think that she
would look damn good painted up
and pulled tight
but instead i told you
I was there for you.
and i squeezed your hand "just so".
and of course i will.
I'll hold your hand if it means
i get to put mine up your skirt later.
I'll feed you these lies like you're a starving
babe and you just keep taking them in
they always do. I find poison works best when
it's whispered. I need to tell you those things
because it's so perfect the way
you look at me like Your
Pulse exists because of mine.
I just hate that I'm
supposed to feel something back.
The only thing i feel
Is the shudder of your thighs
and god it's all I want
to feel. I think you would
say this makes me a jerk
but the truth is that I'm
just more honest than you are.

(edited 6/20)