i did try to call you back just so you know. a few times actually...I got the busy signal almost once and then an answering mechine. i didn't leave a message because i'm pretty sure that talking to me was a secret and i didn't feel it was my place to spill it. i just realized in a very real way that a year from now i could be employed as a firefighter and it makes me super excited. I think my actions have people around me confused right now but i'm not really that hard to figure out i swear. i wish the whole world could see inside my head. oh oh...obscure incubus lyrics time..."in my fantasy, i'm a pantomime/ I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what i mean" and just because i flippin love the song pantomime (crazy thanks to Kat for sending the song to me) i'll include the most scandalous line from the song "In my fantasy, you look good entwined/ in my hair and skin and spit and sweat and spilled red wine/ Your my deep secret, I'm your pantomime/ i'll just move my hands i promise you'll see what i mean" Omg so i got to hang out with Erin Birmingham last night and it was awesome to see her. Been way too long. It was fun. there's something i wish i had the guts to ask. i have a few three word lines to say. this is not coherent. oh who cares it makes sense to me