a breif ramble about how i'd love to get a text from you.

it's killing me that we still havn't talked since that first text i sent you. I want so badly to call you and hear your voice and talk this all out but there are so many things to consider. Like how if i'm wrong i may blow my last chance to see you before i have it. even if i don't get to have you i want to see one more time. i don't remember what you smell like, but i remember how you feel in my arms. I swear though there is still the faintest drift of you in my nostrils and that's driving me crazy not to be able to recollect it....but i digress. it's also hard because i have a heart to protect and you have to understand that.

but Candice, i want to tell you that i am sorry for seeming so distant and so standoffish. god can't you see why this is such a delicate thing for me. can't you just get a hold of me and end this silence. maybe you have fears similar to mine.

Damn it all this is maddening.

Just when i'd shaken you out of my head
your back inside and making me fret.