questioning my questioning

i often think i spend too much time contemplating my mortality for one with so little few years to distance myself from my childhood. now i question, do I? do others just spend too much time busying themselves with trivial matters? are both true? i think they are.

on my substance use...

i think people must wonder why someone so jovial as myself continues to drink and smoke in the fashion i do. The answer is simple really. when you see the world as clearly as I do, you do what you can to make it blurry again....

I want to know how you judge a man.
Is it by his plans?
'cus i don't have that many
Is it in the way he dreams
because it seems
when i close my eyes, i don't have any.
I wander this world
searching for pearls
but it seems it's all oysters.
so hold my hand
and follow my plan
we'll fall, in neat little cloisters.


not sure how exactly but this thought is connected to the last one. Your family will doubt you. Your friends will doubt you. The world will doubt you. but in the end all this means is that when it comes down to it, you better not doubt yourself. Craft a life all your own and REFUSE TO GIVE A FUCK about what anyone thinks of that life. Now i'm kind of rambling, but also remember that legality of morality are not synonymous.

i could use a wish right now but the thing is i need a real shooting star
if you close your eyes and open your heart you'll find its not that hard
to find something falling from the sky strait down to the earth
and when you do i know you'll see it's special worth....

just something i needed to say about myself

i may be a man but i'm a feminist
i may be white but i believe in the equality of all people
i may be hetero but i'm an ally.

a needed proclamation

I AM INFINITE!!!!!!!!