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I feel like i just don't know things the same way that i used to know things. when i think about what is going on in my life, I just don't know whether to look at it in a good way or a bad way. I used to always know things were going to be ok. I used to always be able to just believe that if I waited things out, there would be a solution soon. Oddly enough, i just can't let myself say that life is all miserable. I can't believe that all there is in life is misery and mistakes. HA! even trying to decide if i'm a pessimist or not seems hopeless at times. It's hard to say that I don't have a clue. Like everyone else, I want to have all the answers to life; but I think having honesty is better than having answers. I also believe that with honesty, eventually true answers can be found. I can't let myself have answers if they are only answers to make myself feel better.