I did something that might sound a little strange. After listening to Aliens exist in class yesterday (i don't even remember if that was in the class that I'm supposed to be writing this for or not. The two classes just kind of run together to me) I had been spending a lot of time thinking about myself when i was 15-16 and blink 182 was a band that i listed to quite a bit. I took out a picture of myself from when I was a sophomore in high school and I took it in as I had done many times before, realizing how different i looked now. I then felt an almost uncontrollable urge to stand before the mirror in my bathroom and hold the picture up alongside my reflection so I could make a comparison about what i saw instead of half what i saw and half a mental image of myself. I took in my black sweatshirt with silver bone print across the chest and sleeves, my myriad bracelets, my hemp, choker necklace, my pink hair, my duct tape notebook scribbled with writing, and alongside this image was me today. I, for the first time, felt like i was looking at someone that I hardly understood. It's a bit bizarre to look at yourself and see, maybe for the first time truly see, the different personalities of yourself that you were trying on. We all feel like we are something different from the rules, but there i was looking back in time at what may have come strait from a text book on adolescent development. I remember that after this I went through a period where i was pretty intensely religious. I still think that I there is a core to all of us but i think i finally see how deeply it can get covered sometimes.